This video is part of the video series Born in Hell. This video contains graphic and explicit material. Please listen at your own discretion. If the topics of abuse of any kind, domestic violence, child sexual abuse, or violence bother you, please do not watch this video. In this video I describe the continuation of the abuse in my home, the domestic violence between my parents who were always fighting. My brother Howard was still living at home at this time, using massive amounts of drugs and overdosing during these years. He actually died on our kitchen floor one day and the paramedics saved his life in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. He went into a coma and woke up 3 weeks later with mild brain damage due to the overdose and being clinically dead. My mom continued to verbally abuse me, slap me around, and throw things at me. My dad was still beating me with his belt buckle across my face, and I used to curse at him and tell him I hated him to his face, he would then throw me to the ground and beat my legs and back with his belt. I hated my dad at this time and did not care. He was still attempting suicide at this time and as always, he continued to come into my room at night and tell me he was going to kill the family and himself because we were all from the devil. My dad was still attempting to rape my mom and I was in the 11th grade. This was my life. My best friend Arlene was killed, hit by a car and I was devastated. After her funeral, I sat in the back yard cursing God for leaving me and taking her. I was the one who was dead, who wanted to be gone and not living. I could not figure out why God would leave me in this hell house with people who did not care about me and just wanted to hurt me, and would take my friend away from a family that loved her. I had a big problem with God after this time and already had issues with him because of the abuse anyway. My heart was broken and I sank into a depression. My mom was highly abusive toward me because I was not allowed to feel anything, and because I was down and missing my friend, my mom used any excuse she could to beat me and kick me around.
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