Looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship. I hope this show will help listeners as I share with you a short lesson of my own personal walk with God, looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship materials that have helped me in my healing journey, and the desire He has placed in my heart to share God's Word with others. Looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship. I hope this show will help listeners as I share with you a short lesson of my own personal walk with God, looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship materials that have helped me in my healing journey, and the desire He has placed in my heart to share God's Word with others. WHY I CONTINUE TO SPEAK OUT AGAINST CHILD ABUSE AND PROMOTE CHILD ABUSE PREVENTION AWARENESS Looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship. I hope this show will help listeners as I share with you a short lesson of my own personal walk with God, looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship materials that have helped me in my healing journey, and the desire He has placed in my heart to share God's Word with others. Looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship. I hope this show will help listeners as I share with you a short lesson of my own personal walk with God, looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship materials that have helped me in my healing journey, and the desire He has placed in my heart to share God's Word with others. Looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship. I hope this show will help listeners as I share with you a short lesson of my own personal walk with God, looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship materials that have helped me in my healing journey, and the desire He has placed in my heart to share God's Word with others. This video is part of the video series Born in Hell. This video contains graphic and explicit material. Please listen at your own discretion. If the topics of abuse of any kind, domestic violence, child sexual abuse, or violence bother you, please do not watch this video. Life for me was a continuation of hell. My mom was still abusing me every chance she got, beating me with belts, her fists, or any heavy objects within her reach. When I was 9 years old my mom had to have major surgery due to strangulated hernias. We had to go to the hospital to say good-bye to her just in case she did not make it. The doctors gave her a 50% chance of surviving the surgery. My mom did live and came home to recuperate. One night, during the middle of the night, I woke up as I could hear my mom getting upset at my dad. He was in her room and she was telling him to leave the room. I thought my dad was going to rape my mom just after she had surgery so I grabbed my big, pink jumbo plastic baseball bat and went in behind him in the room. I yelled at him to leave mom alone and smacked him in the back of his head as hard as I could. My dad proceeded to slap me, back hand me, and threw me across the room into the wall. My neck and back hit first, and then my head and I slumped to the floor nearly knocked out. I could not see clearly, just stars and was disoriented. My dad then began to curse me and kick me. My brother Howard came and got me out of the room away from my dad. My mom did not care that I tried to protect her, and continued to abuse me after she recovered. In the photo below I just turned 11 years old. My mom had beaten my face severely in October, 2 1/2 months before this pic was taken. She broke my nose, busted my lips, and left huge, raised welts on my cheeks. The beating she gave me rearranged my face and took a long time to heal. The family that took me to see Santa Claus had to beg my mom to let me go. She told them I was a "rotten bitch" and that I "did not deserve to go see Santa Claus". They finally convinced her to let me go with them to take a picture with Santa at the mall. Looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship. I hope this show will help listeners as I share with you a short lesson of my own personal walk with God, looking at Biblical Counselling and Discipleship materials that have helped me in my healing journey, and the desire He has placed in my heart to share God's Word with others. This video is part of the Born in Hell Video series regarding the abuse I suffered as a child at the hands of my parents and a sibling. This video details the CSA, Child Sexual Abuse and Incest I was forced to endure at 8 years old. This video is EXPLICIT and GRAPHIC and I advise that you watch at your own discretion. The topics of child abuse and child sexual abuse can make people very uncomfortable and can trigger survivors of abuse. Please make the right decision for yourself. I am 7 years old in this photo. My birthday is late in the year so I would be turning 8 before the new year. This is the last year I would be a virgin as my brother began to sexually abuse me that winter. I suffered repeated child rape, sodomy and sexual abuse for nearly one year from January 1974 until October that year. My mom knew about the incest, because I had developed a bad infection as a result of the damage done and I began to get sick. After the third sexual assault rape I told my mom and she did nothing to help me except to say that it was "my problem" and not "her problem" and for me to "wrap myself up like a mummy at night with my blankets". That was her answer. She turned a blind eye, and a blind ear to the sexual assaults my brother inflicted on me. I sat in bathtubs of rose coloured bloody water, holding my legs, rocking back and forth in so much pain from the rape and sodomy. I was afraid I would die, and then after so many more rapes and assaults on my body, I was hoping I would die. The damage done to my body was irreparable even if I had decided as an adult to have reconstructive surgery. I was made barren by my brother who was 21 years old at the time of the CSA, he was about 6'5" tall and weighed around 200 lbs. The damage to my mind and heart and spirit and soul left me wanting to die. My mom was abusing me severely at this time, beating me with heavy objects and cracked my head open with the wooden handle of a meat mallet and then beat me in the kitchen. I realised at this time that my mom was truly trying to hurt me and that I was just a punching bag for her. I was made to take it, deal with it, be okay with it. If I cried I was beaten again until I stopped crying. If I said anything I was beaten again for "opening my G'damn mouth". My mom called me a whore because my brother raped me and my brother called me "his whore" while raping me. I began to shut down at this point in my life and began to hate my self, my family and life itself. 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