A short poem to my abusers
All the harsh words you screamed in my face All the cruel names you called me cannot be erased They mark my memories like a crack in wall You can try to repair it, but it's not as it was, just patched up is all All the beatings, the kickings, the burnings, the shovings Of my body when I was so small Cannot be taken back, the damage is done The wounds turn to scars, the bones mend with time But the pain is still there and those old fears remain You said you were sorry but it wasn't your fault Blaming everything and everyone but yourself I look back in the mirrors of my memories and see That it was you who were responsible for the pain and the blood You send sneaky reminders that I should love you and forgive All that you did when I was a little kid It was just the times, the way it was back then And I sit and cry not knowing where to begin To tell you just how seriously messed up you were And how seriously you messed up my childhood You tore my body, my mind and my soul Ripping to pieces my entire whole My body continued to live, but my spirit was dead I am a prisoner of myself living in my head You cannot take back the horrors you gave me You cannot make up for the damage to my heart You cannot undo the evil acts committed You cannot make it better, it will not go away I choose to forgive you, and not for you at all But for myself so I can have an ounce of peace I choose to never forget what you put me through In order that my life remains reality and not a lie The lie that you would prefer me to live until you die I will remember all the pain and suffering I will remember all the torture and the rage I will remember the lack of love and mercy I will remember and try to not be like you Laurie Ann Smith Copyright 2012 Comments are closed.
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